Chakra cleaning.

Chakras are our energy centres. They are the openings for life energy to flow into and out of our aura. I need to clean my Chakras every day if i don't i get very bad blockage. Symptoms are headache, cloudy head, can't concentrate, bad mood, short temper, apathy, all pretty negative.

Bad moods grumpy short temper.

No Alcohol................hic up!

I want to give up Alcohol.

In the alchemist the boy meets many people in his journey through life, these people have a special message to give him. I remember talking to a man in the swimming baths he said that he had given up drinking and it had stopped his depression, he was very fit for his age. He was a artist a painter. I always become depressed the day after drinking and it lasts for a few days. Not to mention my energy levels are so low as well.

There is good in everthing and everyone you only have to look for it.

Why do i always seem to pickup the negative energy from people around me? Well it seems to me that we all have a energy profile let me elabarate, As we grow up the energies around us become familiar to us espcially in your home. And that profile is the one that you feel comfortable with even if this means that you will be attracted to some very negative people. They have a similar energy profile. I grow up in a house with a very negative man which made me very negative and this became part of my energy profile. Thank god i have reached 2nd level Reiki or im sure i would not be even writting this bolg. As Eckhart tolle said "Anything unconscious dissolves when you shine the light of consciousness on it" So i think what im trying to say to myself is instead of just being aware of the negative energy in the room, place or person, i need to let go of this old profile and move on. And be more aware of the positive energy. This has taken me a long time to relise and i do keep falling back into the same trap. I remember reading an web page article about a psychic police man who said that even looking into the eyes of convicted murderers he could see a tiny light.There is good in everthing and everyone you only have to look.

Live wire. Open wound. psychic sponge.

Today i feel like a bare wire or a aerial that picks up radio stations but today some one has turned up the power and i can pickup much more especially bad stuff. i seem to go round in a energy cir cul and its always the same where i get to the point that im so toxic that i cant leave the house, because i know something bad will happen. Bad energy just attracts bad shit. Have to go and clean my chackra's.

House work .

Today i am very depressed.

Energy up down good bad.

I think i am going just a bit insane.Being hyper sensitive is driving me mad.These days i dont want to go out of the house.By picking up other peoples energy is so trying and effects me too much.Doris stokes mentions this in one of her books. And it finally killed her.

The Magnetic force of negative Energy

Just like in the Harry potter film Prisoner of Azkaban near the end of the film,his energy is being sucked out of him and then Harry must think of a memory a very strong good memory to project positive light.When meeting people even in the street i am aware of a feeling of ether a sucking feeling or a giving feeling.

Feel shit today.

Nursery started about a week ago, taking my son to nursery/primary school is affecting me much more than i would like to admit. Not sure if it is my own shit coming to the surface or am i picking up other people's shit which i am aware of. I'm doing it again only focusing on the bad stuff its my number 1 bad habit.Instead i should only focus on the positive.

Breaking a bad habit.

Since everyone and everything including thoughts is energy it does get a bit over powering.falling back into old thinking habits or just old bad habits requires some will power to break.one step forward 2 steps back .Thinking is for me the problem area negative thinking patterns or loops habits very difficult to change.In fact what you are thinking is 99% of the problem/solution.Being aware first of negative thoughts is the first step.observe and listen.

Hyper Vigilant Energy

Old energy that has come to the surface i have been aware that it is hyper vigilant.

Very Deep Down Reiki cleansing.

Energy that is trapped deep inside needs to be released very slowly and very carefully.

Drinking alcohol for me inter-fears with this very delicate proses. Causing too much energy to be released which is over powering.I am now trying to stop drinking alcohol not an easy thing to do.